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P A G E 12 paris in early spain P D E IR V ON FINDING MY BOOTS AGAIN T h e b ig c l e a r - p l a s t i c b a g t h a t c a m e h o m e w ith m e f r o m H a r b o r v i e w h a d h a d m y b o o t s in i t . A nd a ll m y c u t- a p a r t, r e tc h e d - u p o n c lo th e s an d a s t r a n g e r 's s w e a te r a n d a n o th e r s t r a n g e r 's s k i j a c k e t. T h e b ig p l a s t i c b a g , t a g g e d w ith m y n a m e , h e l d a l l t h e s e t h i n g s a n d b e g a n to h o l d g r u e s o m e s m e l l s — m i l d e w o f b lo o d , m i l d e w o f b i l e . A r e a l l p a t i e n t s s e n t h o m e w ith s u c h a b a g ? THE BRINK I w e a r y o f th e c r e p e h a n g e r s T h a t m a k e of s t a r s , s ig h tle s s e y e s in t h e c a d a v e r o f a fa ilin g u n iv e r s e . Is t h e d e a t h r a t t l e s o a u d i b l e T h a t w e f o r g e t w e a r e on th e b r in k B o th o f d i s a s t e r a n d h o p e ? M ARY M c KENNEY A n d f o r a lo n g t i m e , I d i d n 't t h in k o f m y b o o ts . M y d a n c i n g p a r t n e r , a n IV o n a p o le , h e ld m e tig h tly b y th e w r i s t . A n d I w a s g l a d h e l e d , in o u r d a n c e . S o m e h o w I d i d n 't h a v e th e m i g h t o r t h e w it t o d o a n y th i n g b u t f o ll o w . F o l l o w i n to d r e a m s , f o ll o w d o w n t h e h a l l — It w a s a s lo w , s t r a i g h t d a n c e . He s e e m e d v e r y a tta c h e d to m e . B u t e v e n tu a lly w e w e re s e p a r a te d — h e s e n t t o l i v e w ith h i s o w n k in d , a n d m e w ith m i n e . A n d I b e g a n to t h i n k o f m y b o o t s . T h e y w e re a g o o d p a ir , h o w th e y c a m e up a ro u n d m y a n k le s , how m y f e e t fe lt i n v u l e r n a b l e in t h e m . M y f e e t f e l t l ik e t h e y c o u l d c l o b b e r t h e g r o u n d . A nd w e a rin g th e m , I h a d m o x y , h a d h u e v o s , a n d c h u t z p a h . I w a s s t r o n g a s a b a n jo n o te ! N o n e o f w h ic h s e e m e d t o d o m e a n y g o o d th a t m o r n in g , m y b o o ts on th e d a r k w et a s p h a lt of th e lo a d in g d o c k . . . . A nd th e n th e y w e re tip p e d , to e s up to th e F e b r u a r y 2 2 n d r a i n . A n d l y in g o n th e a s p h a l t , I t h o u g h t , D e a th i s n o b ig d e a l N o b ig d e a l . A n d th e h a r d m e t a l s c i s s o r s o f th e p a r a m e d i c s r a n u p o n e a r m , a c r o s s th e c h e s t, d o w n th e o t h e r a r m . A n d th e c l o t h e s c a m e a p a r t . A n d th e l i g h t p a w p r i n t s o f F e b r u a r y 2 2 n d r a i n c a m e t o t r e a d o v e r th e p o o r r i b s , t h e d e a r a b d o m e n , th e b r a v e l i v e r . F in e , lig h t, w et t r a c k s . O f th e c i r c l e o f p e o p le s t a n d i n g t h e r e in th e r a i n , tw o s t r a n g e r s c a m e u n c l a d , a n d la id c lo th in g a c r o s s th e b o d y m u c h to o b a r e f o r F e b r u a r y . I fo u n d m y b o o ts in a s t o r a g e c l o s e t , th e y h a d b e e n a ir in g o u t f o r 9 m o n th s . In t h e p a s t 3 s e a s o n s , I h a v e w o r n w a y to o m a n y s l i p p e r s . A n d i t 's tim e i t 's a lm o s t tim e f o r m y b o o ts to c o m e b a c k o n . G A IL t G L A D S J0 THE FACTS OF LIFE W in te r, a n d a g r a y s to r m s e a b e h a v e d a s i f w e d i d n 't m a t t e r , d r i v i n g th e m a i n d e c k u n d e r w a t e r , b r e a k i n g o v e r th e f l y i n g b r i d g e , l e a v i n g th e c a t w a l k s s l i c k w ith i c e . E v e n o u r ta n k e r s e e m e d to ig n o re i t s o w n d e s p a i r , w a llo w in g s te a d ily n o r th lik e a f lo a tin g b r ic k . F o r a n i g h t a n d a d a y w e d i d n 't e a t o r s le e p o r c h a n g e o u r filth y c lo th e s , s t a r i n g in to a s k y th e c o lo r o f a s h , t r y i n g t o w i l l th e w e a t h e r to b r e a k , e v e n th e o ld s a l t s s t u d y i n g c l o u d s , r e l u c t a n t to m e e t e a c h o t h e r 's g a z e . A n d th e f r e e z i n g r a i n b lo w n h o r i z o n t a l , s w e e p i n g th e d e c k s l ik e s h o tg u n b l a s t s . B e l l s d o w n in th e e n g i n e r o o m . T h e s lo w f i n g e r o f m o v in g l i g h t f r o m th e l i g h t s h i p o f f C o l u m b i a b a r b a r e l y a b l e to b o r e a h o le in th e s m o t h e r i n g d a r k n e s s . N ig h t. C h r i s t , w h y d id w e e v e r c o m e to s e a ? W h e r e a r e th e w h a l e s a n d p o r p o i s e s , th e th o u s a n d m e r m a i d s s in g in g ? 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T h e d r u g g i s t f i l l s h i s b l a n k s w ith b o o z e . T h e r e 's n o p r e s c r i p t i o n f o r g o o d l u c k . T h r e e b a r s d o w n th e b a r b e r h a s l e f t h i s l a n o l i n a n d r a z o r s . H e 's g o n e t o g r o o m s u c c e s s in M i l p i t a s , C a l i f o r n i a . In w h a t i s l e f t of h o u s e s , h o u s e w i v e s b e a t t h e i r h u s b a n d s w ith th e f i s t s o f t h e ir f r ig id a n d fu g itiv e d r e a m s . T h e r i v e r e n d s th e to w n in m u d . D a m n is j u s t a s o u n d th e y s a y to s to p th e c u r r e n t f r o m a lw a y s c u rv in g in . T h e la w s i g h s in th e s h e r i f f 's l a p . T h e i r a f f a i r 's s o t i r e d t h e y 'r e g o in g to m a r r y a n d m o v e t o a c o n d o in O r l a n d o . T h e b o a r d s g o f i r s t in s p l i n t e r s . T h e n t h e w in d o w s s h i v e r c l e a r to w i n d s . 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