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Street roots 11 * June 22, 2012 ABUSE fro m page 10 his pocket. Then the drawer took flight: ran to him. She stabbed me, Richard said. Richard pulled it out and flung it across the playing guitar. As Richard sat with the six- Brandy lay on the floor in the living room, room. Another followed right behind. month-old Ian on his lap, the guy strummed holding her face. Ian was nearby. Francisco Brandy’s mother bear kicked in. “Over the Rainbow.” Richard danced the Her first thought: Ian. Where was he? On looked at Richard. smiling child around as Brandy stood a few Give me your keys, Francisco said. the love seat, awake. Afraid he might roll feet away. Richard handed them over. He wanted his off, Brandy placed him on the floor. Unlike Ian, she wasn’t smiling. First, coat. Francisco obliged. Her second thought: cell phone. Where she’d been unable to speak to her 8-year-old Now get out of was it? On the daughter, Skye, in Idaho earlier in the day. here, Francisco said. windowsill, across the Then the neighbor’s girlfriend was giving Richard fled. room. She ran for it. her an earful about bringing Ian out close to Walking over to It felt so far away. The rent moneys II was in the 10 o’clock. When the woman wouldn’t shut Brandy, Francisco Brandy held the drawer, Bat before Brandy up, Brandy had enough. She wanted to saw her face. Bloody, phone and dialed. Or coaid gel there, Richard leave, and Richard, sad about missing free and her eyes were all tried to. But she beer, carried Ian back to the apartment. black. moved, Opening it, he couldn’t. Inside, as Brandy lay Ian on the love seat, Ian cried, so Butterfingers. shoved the cash Into his she asked Richard why the woman didn’t Brandy picked him Who are you pocket, Then the drawer took like her. up. She struggled to calling? Richard Women are bitches, Richard said. flights Richard pulled It oat her feet. barked. “I didn’t like hearing it,” remembers Go clean yourself 911, she answered. and flu n g it across the room. Brandy. An argument began. up in the bathroom, Her third thought: Mnother followed rig h t Another knock at the door interrupted it. Francisco said. Oh, no. I shouldn’t behind. The neighbor’s girlfriend. She wanted to How does my face have said that. apologize. At least, that’s what Richard look? she asked. Richard, aware the thought, but he was drunk and couldn’t be Bad, he said. police wanted him for Handing Ian to too sure. Tomorrow, he told her, come back breaking a no-contact Francisco, she stumbled to the bathroom tomorrow. order, raced to her. He yanked the phone When he closed the door, Brandy asked mirror. away and snapped it in half. why he hadn’t let the woman in. But Richard Swollen right cheek. Black eye. Bloody And that’s when Brandy knew. Something was in the mood for bed, not talk. Brandy split lip. Red mark on her throat. bad was about to happen. She could feel — wouldn’t let go of her question. Richard Yes. It was bad. Richard’s fist hammered the right side of Francisco didn’t think the fight was bad couldn’t hold back his annoyance. her head. The room swirled, turning circles. Shut the fuck up, he yelled. enough to tell the cops. Another fist — direct — to the head. More than an hour after the assault, And in an instant — Brandy was done. Spinning. The room, spinning. All the arguing, the yelling, the hitting at A fist. Her head. The room, dark, going ... Brandy sat holding Ian. Her cheek throbbed. Don’t call, Francisco said. Tent City 3, in the Georgian Motel, at Way Knees, buckling. Falling, falling. Fist. Head. Why not? Brandy asked. Back Inn. For weeks, months, 16 long Falling. Room. Darker, darker - Because you drink, too. You yell, too. months, she’d been telling herself she’d Time passed: Seconds? A minute? Brandy would never deny it. But did that leave him, go somewhere, anywhere. But Coming to. On the floor. Brandy was on mean Richard should hit her? No. when would she do it? When? the floor. Fist. Who? Wha— Richard. What if he comes back? she asked. Standing over her. Straddling her. Yelling. Tonight. Now. Don’t worry, Francisco said. I took his I don’t want to be with you anymore, She was yelling. Stop! Stop! Fighting. keys. Brandy said. I want to go home, back to Clawing. Scratching. Biting. That didn’t convince Brandy. Richard Where was Ian? Idaho. always came back. And when he did, he’d be Her throat. Pressure. What? Richard’s There’s the door, Richard said. furious. With a landline that only offered I need money for a bus ticket for Ian and hands? Strangling her? Couldn’t breathe. Internet, she had to leave, get to a phone. Slapping. Get off me! Get off me! Fight — me. So she thought of a solution: to lie. And the front door opened. Francisco, No, Richard said. I’m going to the store, Brandy said. Even The rent money: It was in the drawer. But home from the bar. with her split lip and black eye, Francisco Richard kicked Brandy in the side. before Brandy could get there, Richard didn’t stop her. Francisco stood in the hallway. Richard moved. Opening it, he shoved the cash into Forgetting her own coat, Brandy stuffed Ian into his snowsuit. She grabbed the stroller. Strapped him inside, walked out of the apartment. She rolled him down the stairs, opened the front door. More stairs, the sidewalk. Brandy stopped Across the street was the construction site where Richard worked. Could he be hiding there? Or around the corner? Inside, she had devised a plan. Go to Hope Place, three blocks away. She grabbed the stroller’s handlebars. She moved. She zoomed past the apartment building, the bushes, the taco truck. She looked. No one. She passed the empty lot. Orange streetlights shone above. She reached the intersection of South Othello Street and Martin Luther King Jr. Way South. One block. She entered the crosswalk. Barely a car on the road. No light rail train. On to the sidewalk on the other side. She pushed the stroller faster. On her right, a parking lot with cars. Was he behind one? She didn’t stop. She hustled past the Bank of America, the Safeway. Two blocks. She picked up speed. Her feet raced. A driveway. The stroller’s wheels clicked. The side of Hope Place. Almost there. Was he behind her? Don’t look. Go, go. The building’s lights. The door. She was there. Brandy pounded the glass entrance with her fist. The security guard looked up, came to the door. Are you OK? he said. I just left Hope Place awhile ago, Brandy said. I got beat up. I need to call the cops. He let her in, and she rolled Ian into the foyer. The guard gave her his cell phone. Brandy’s fingers, working in a way they hadn’t in the apartment, before she broke free from the abuse, dialed. Nine. 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