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PAGE 11 THE MORNING AFTER THE END OF THE WORLD BY J. N. NIELSEN The world did not end at the stroke of midnight; Clocks kept their time, computers did not crash, Generators continued to spin in their bearings, Transmission lines humming and crackling as before, The infrastructure of industrialized civilization intact. The four horses are in their stable yet, Munching on grain and hay, Awaiting their apocalyptic riders, War, disease, famine, and death, To saddle up for an excursion. While not quite retired, the four horsemen Have not loosed their full fury upon the world, Riding out to wreak havoc and mayhem — Preferring occasional sorties, diversions of destruction To wholesale slaughter and wanton ruination. SETH TOBOCMAN \Nar, proud upon his steed, Decorated with medals and ribbons, Worshipped by the devotees of Mars, Cuts a stylish figure in his uniform Spattered with blood and gore. But no enthusiast for doom has ever been Dissuaded from his belief in the coming end of the world By the mere failure of the world to end abruptly No evidence can contradict a faith in the end of days; No fact can intervene where certainty is in play. When the dire warnings of catastrophe, The shrill cried unheeded, the masses unprepared, The atmosphere tense and pregnant with crisis, Issued in nothing more than an unexpected quietude, A crisis unfulfilled, a punctual anti-climax — Famine, wan and shrunken figure, Rides a starving nag, ribcage visible Through the sagging skin; Horse and rider emaciated, They plod along slowly. When the black helicopters do not appear Hovering menacingly over the homes of tax protesters To dispossess them of their freehold, Fell messengers of global conspiracy Abducting the inhabitants and disappearing — When the sun rose once again upon a new day A new year, a new century, a new millennium, Blazing brightly, boldly, and coolly in the winter sky — The morning after the end of the world Was a morning like and unlike any other. Dise^^ffiseol^eds^nd deformed, Clutches a hood’^i^out his head To hide the marks on his face; Following War and Famine, He seizes the stragglers that remain. When the rioting in the streets of cities Is but the drunken enthusiasm of revelers, Not angry mobs calling for revolution And the lynching of politicians, To be shot one by one or hung from lampposts — Death, celebrated in many a triumph, Undisputed master of the Horsemen, Whether riding ahead or bringing up the rear, Glories in his power over young and old, Rich and poor, happy and sad, well and ill. The grim quartet, astride their steeds, With hooves clattering across the sky, Bearing down upon the beleaguered people, Followed by thunder and lightning, Enact a convincing theater of doom. This dramatic, sublime Twilight of the Gods, In which the victim might be persuaded to participate As a player in a greater, more noble destiny, Relief from the mundane cares of life. Seems a call to higher sacrifice, seductively appealing. Ask not the date of doomsday; It is not the horsemen of the apocalypse That should inspire us with fear. Today and everyday is doomsday, Today no less than tomorrow or yesterday. The sinister horsemen of peacetime Ride silently among us today and every day, Scarcely noticed but for the need to avert our eyes — Horsemen not of the traumatic but of the chronic: Poverty, illiteracy, malnutrition, and despair. Such ills are the fuels of civil strife, The despondency, desperation, and unrest Of indecisive low-intensity conflict: The car-bomb, the assassination, and the ambush, Hostages, Juntas, surveillance, and military advisors. Not the clear sound of hoofbeats approaching, But the muffled steps of infiltrators in the night Are heard in the dark world of covert operations: The mercenary, the assassin, the gun-runner, The profiteer, the spook, and the double-agent. When the militants and the survivalists, The Posse Comitatus and the Klan, Fail to rally the masses to their cause, Left with unfulfilled fantasies of race war, Nuclear annihilation, and vigilante justice — When the social order does not descend into barbarism, Swept away like an illusion, a surreal moment in history, Which may or may not have really happened, Fragile civilization doomed to collapse upon itself, Expiring with the century that nearly spelled its doom — When the UFOs do not land upon a mountaintop To take into a safe and secure womb the true believers Who waited faithfully in this desolate place Certain that salvation would descend from the skies And land upon this very spot — When the heists of The Order fail to inspire revolution; Or the rampages of Jonesboro, Springfield and Columbine Fail to stoke the rage of the dispossessed; and bombers Fail to ignite the powder-keg of simmering resentment after Waco, Texas; Ruby Ridge, Idaho; and Oklahoma City — When no members of Delta Force rappel from the roofs And smash through windows into living rooms In a government-sanctioned home invasion Targeting the vocal critics of national policy And writers of crank letters to the editor — When no mysterious agents of government — ATF, FBI, CIA, NSA, NATO, UN — Or malevolent NGOs — The Masons, the New World Order Rand Corporation, the Trilateral Commission — Come in the night to seize the papers and effects of patriots — When Armageddon fails to arrive as scheduled, Like a locomotive careening out of control, Shaking itself to pieces as it jolts and sparks Down fateful rails on a one-way journey To its inevitable rendezvous with destiny — GODFATHER'S BOOKS AND ESPRESSO BAR Audio Book Salts A Rentals * Cards * Pastries Incense * Occult A Mata physical * Lattes A Literature 1100 Commercial • Astoria, OR 97103 Phone: (503) 325-8143 No Cinderellas we, returning to a pumpkin rather than a carriage The carriage was there still, after midnight, And still at dawn it waited for us in the early light. With a certain melancholy we return, hesitating, To mundane lives, after the lure of danger and excitement fades Suburban surrealism engineers a numbing sameness, Repetitions of winding drives and cul-de-sacs, One home indistinguishable from another, The same cars parked in the same driveways. Inspired by desperately sought distraction We shall make our own apocalypse, We shall forge our own Armageddon, Beating our ploughshares into swords For lack of the genuine article. Doomsday is not one but many, Harper's Ferry and Andersonville, Gallipoli and The Somme Mountain Meadows and Donner Pass, Auschwitz and Dauchau, Sand Creek and Little Big Hom, Hiroshima and Nagasaki — Names that resonate, that ring in our ears. How much easier it is to face doomsday: Armageddon, Götterdämmerung, gigantomachy, Than to face the doom day in and day out, The grinding circumstances, the dismal routine, An implacable timeclock begrudging every passing minute. The sweet swansong of glory and destiny Calls to us like the Sirens to Odysseus, Whispering in our ears the seductive sounds of fate — That is, whispering sweet nothings, a gentle nihilism To lull the unwary into sleep and oblivion We dream the elusive, ineluctable dream, Distracting ourselves with fantasies of doomsday, Drawn in by the drama and excitement — The ever-present doom surrounding us Apparently unable to slake our thirst for horror We wait for a just anarchy, come to save the pure in heart, A clean sweep, a clean slate, a new world — Surely the Day of Judgment is upon us! Surely the wrath of gods shall fall heavily upon the wicked! Surely the unrepentant shall be held to answer for their crimes! Certain of justice delayed, that it will not be denied, We wait, choosing to wait rather than to act — Waiting for the end of our days, Waiting for a sign, waiting as the hours drag, The days pass, the years fade, and life slips away. IF YOU WORK Waiting until waiting no longer has any meaning, We forget why we have suspended our lives, Waiting only in order to wait — waiting... The wait having become an end in itself. Waiting until doomsday Which has, At length. At last, Long last, Arrived. J N Nielsen is a Portland poet i »
