Vet COTTAGE GROVE SENTINEL MAY 24, 2017 11A Continued from A1 camera. A Yashica Lynx--his $35 pay-off from a guy who he beat with a better hand. "He was going home the next day and said he'd send me the $35. I was young and dumb but I wasn't stupid," Marc says. A brief negotiation, won Marc the camera around the soldier's neck and he started snapping away. Anything and everything. Combat, R and R time, prepa- rations and those nightly poker games. His fellow soldiers would shoo him away and insist no one cared. "But I said, 'No, people are going to want to see this.' I was wrong." He'd been so sure because he grew up enthralled with war history. From books to mov- ies to boyhood games. He ab- sorbed every piece of narrative from pens that had been on the ground, in the thick of war. Maybe that's where it started. Of course, it could have been years after the war when, after receiving the typical reception granted to Vietnam soldiers, Marc stuffed his pictures into a box and forgot about the war. He forgot about his three tours. About how he lay on the fl oor of the jungle with bullet holes in his body, in between his friends and the enemy, one waiting for the other to blink and come re- trieve him. He forgot about the pictures. And he forgot about the fi lm. He forgot about ev- erything as he walked with his wife, on vacation, and stumbled upon the traveling Vietnam Vet- eran Memorial wall. "I saw it. And then I saw peo- ple laying mementos. I saw how they decorated. I saw all the names," he said. He saw a glass box with a ted- dy bear. And a note. "You could never sleep with- out this bear, Johnny. I hope now you can rest in peace," it was signed "Mom." Marc remembered. "I'd been in Vietnam." He remembered the pictures and he remembered the fi lm. The 80s came and with it, per- mission to make movies about Vietnam. Marc was working in Hollywood, a gig that would later garner him an Emmy. On a visit home, he told his moth- er he was collecting his photos and home movies again. He was going to help. He was going to show the world what had hap- pened in that jungle. "She says, 'Oh. You might need these, then,' and she comes back with a shoe box. It's every letter that I wrote her while I was over there in chronological order." Maybe it started there. Through occasional tears and pats to Ben, Marc recalls the hours that turned into days that turned into weeks and the years that went by. There were visits to his Marine friends for interviews about their time to- gether in Vietnam. A divorce. A partnership with a music producer to put his experience into song. A purchase of a Har- ley motorcycle because it's not about having a destination, it's about fi nding a road and see- ing how far it goes. There was a self-published photo book. A call that a friend had committed suicide. And then another. The son he was raising alone fell ill with leukemia, recovered. And then fell ill again. He sold his Harley. He kept going. "I was living with my ex-wife at the time because she was rais- ing my grandson. My daughter was an addict and I thought the least I could do is provide fi nan- cial support for my ex who had taken on this job of raising our grandson," Marc said. That's when his book arrived. And maybe that's where it start- ed. "I was showing it to a friend. We went down to a bar and sat at the counter. I saw a man there and said, 'Hey, let me buy you a drink.'" The man was wearing a Ma- rine's hat, on the Marine's birth- day. "That's when my friend shoved the book in front of us and said, 'Oh you were in Viet- nam, look, he just published this book of photographs.'" The man took the book. He sat in the booth with his wife. Marc and his friend found a ta- ble of their own. "We're talking and I look back and his wife is out of her seat and on his side of the booth. She's petting his head and he's turning pages and pointing and pointing. And she has tears run- ning down her face. They were talking. That's healing. That's healing happening," Marc said. That's where it started. It's been more than 20 years of counseling now. A disability label due to the PTSD suffered at the hands of Vietnam. But ev- ery day, Marc says he wakes up with one thought: The book. It's his memoir. It will accom- pany his photo book, published by Stack House and eventual- ly, an album of those songs he worked on and a documenta- ry made up of all those home movies and interviews with his fellow veterans. The photos and letters from the shoe box. "I don't get any money, really. It's not about money. It's about saving people and healing peo- ple. A veteran has killed himself in the time we have been here talking," he said. He'll hold a book signing for his photo book at the Book Mine this Friday during the Art Walk. Ben will be at his side as he has been for the last fi ve years. He's not sure when the documentary will debut--he needs a venue fi rst. But that's just the logistics. It's been 31 years and he knows he can wait a week more. He knows when he wakes up to- morrow, it will be with a bit of a sentence to scratch out for his memoir or a touch of a memory that may send Ben closer to his side. And that's all he wants now. To continue his work with his constant companion. And if he can do it on a Harley, even bet- ter. "This is my life's work," he M AY I S M E N TA L H E A LT H AWARENESS MONTH says with the weight of tears pinning his words. "It's my life. And if I can do anything else while I'm doing this it would be to get another Harley with a side car for Ben. And we would get in it and we would head to- wards Drain. There's a road up there and I want to see how far it goes. That's what it's about. Get- ting on the bike, leaving the city, fi nding the highway and just go- ing. It gets quiet. If I get hun- gry, we stop at a diner. If I get tired, we'll stop at a motel. But it's not about a destination. It's about traveling the road when you don't know where it goes or where it ends." Want to talk but don't know how? 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