OPINION Anger, silence, racism and change: Let s talk for real Ll\S\l( KTI \ "And of ( ourse I am afraid, because the transformation of silence into language and a< lion is an act of self-revelation, and that always seems fraught with danger " - Andre horde Gulp. This is not easy to write Hut to remain silent on the issues of racism, anger and failure to open dia logue that now hang silently heavy on the shoulders of the Emerald would be betraying myself, I'm referring to a recent series of events: the mug shots of three African-American men accused of sexual assault that ran front and-center in the Emerald: alle gations of racism, and that the only reason the photos were printed was to reveal that these men were black; and a flyer cir culated around campus consist ing of jumbled headlines, the three aforementioned photos, and the words, "PORTRAITS OF VVHITK RACISM," threading together photos of Emerald staffers, including the one you see above. Emerald columnist Marlin Fisher already defended the printing of the photos and denounced the flyer, and staff members have met with repre sentatives of several student unions to discuss portrayal of people of color in this paper. Why bring up this touchy issue again after things are dying down? Why not just let it go? I can't. Not when my face is being used to represent a mode of hatred of which I do not feel a part. Not when there are people, even one person, who believes this paper may be racist Not when this paper has not ade quately addressed charges of racism. In his column (ODE. Nov. 12), Fisher says the photos of the men would have been printed had the men been white. He uses as an example the printing of a photo of Michael Patric k Ryan, a former University stu dent who raped a woman in the dorms and fled to Idaho, where he killed himself. Fisher also cites other exam ples of newspapers, including the Register-Guard printing pho tos of alleged criminals who were white people, and nobody suggested that all white people were vilified l.et me suggest that tin* issue is more subjective, less black and white I look at that front page and see mug shots of Perkins. Shelley and Harries The combination of the classic "criminal mug shot” photos, the placement of the pictures on the front page, in the center of the top of the page remind me of a "wanted” poster. It was the image of three largo, staring black faces leaping out of the top of the page assaulting the read er before anything else, copy included, that is offensive to those who called the printing of them racist. I don't believe it was the Emerald's intention to appear rai is! However, I have lo ques lion the judgment of those who l ookin'! understand why [«>ople thought we wore rn< ist Without a thorough examina tion of ourselves. our values and our praiiices regarding sensitive issues we i 111 I not hope to elev ate ourselves above the level of a high si hool paper As a university paper, we need to address the images we are presenting, espec tally when we live in a town where black people are truly a minority, and where mans students, not know - ing many people of color them selves. get their impressions of them from crime reports This paper does not exist in a vacu um, and if we are responsible for just one white person's urge to cross the street w hen they see a black, face approaching on the sidewalk, then we need lo hold ourselves accountable. Without asking ourselves the often emotional questions. "Who w ill be offended? Do we have the right to offend them for the sake of news? Why do alle gations of racism offend us so much?'' then this paper will never reach out lo those who have turned their hai ks on it already And that's why 1 have to address the "portraits of white racism" flyer and the win it made me feel I cannot, as some have suggested, let it go so that the person/people who i rafted that fiver would hold no more power over me Nor can I write it of os a juvenile act Nor < an I accept the argument that "peo ple who know you know you’re not a racist." Again, mu issues arc not mat simple Sonuihodv saw those photographs of the three men on the front page of the Emerald ami believed they indicated white racism. Somebody believed that discussing their anger with us was a waste of time and chose to anonymously charge the entire staff of racism, and cut out pictures of our w hite faces to substantiate those" charges against boring, pointless Emerald " If the placement of the pho tographs of the three black men — beneath the word "Charges" — suggests to any reader that Hint k Man equals Rapist, then the fiver suggests by the plat e ment of the photographs of the six men and two women, beneath the word "Charges suggests that White Emerald Employee equals Racist That is the charge that I believe has been leveled against me, and that is the charge to which 1 must respond. And to whomever crafted that piece of paper — which ended with the word "Think," printed in large letters — I have thought about this a lot. 1 am still thinking And I now must speak to you. I wish you could feel like you could come forward and speak your mind instead of hiding iiehind your anonymous anger. I understand that you may feel like you would be wasting your time. But that doesn’t change the fact that by placing my photo graph on a flyer as a way to demonstrate white racism, pre sumably without knowing me or the others whose pictures you have reproduced you have at cused me of being something I have worked my whole life not to be And you hurt me And you made me feel afraid. Afraid that 1 may have been unconsciously harboring racist notions .ill along Afraid that il someone is capable of this ty pe of anger, they are capable of more serious manifestations of rage Afraid that if 1 write this. I will both alienate those whom I’m trying to reai h, and those for whom I work Afraid that tins column will he viewed as noth mg more than an expression of white guilt "Guilt and defensiveness are bricks in n wall against which we all flounder, they serve against none of our futures,” writes black feminist lesbian poet activist Audre horde I'his writer has helped clarify1 for me that I must not remain silent about issues that hit my heart When I read Fisher's i olumn, I saw defensiveness When read ing mine, some mnv claim to see guilt Hut to bring up another valuable lesson I have learned from horde, though both guilt and defensiveness lire counter productive. I would rather he ace used of both than to slay Why bring up this touchy issue again after things are dying down? Why not just let it go? I cant. Not when my face is being used to represent a mode of hatred of which I do not feel a part. silent Him ause silent.e, nr the mabil il\ to express anger. breeds not only misundBrstanding but eventually hatred And. if 1 nutv tiring up another wisdom of Andre I orde. "Hatred is the furv of those \\ ho do not share our goals, and its objti t is death and destria turn Anger is a grief of distortions between peers, and its obje< t is i lunge Mv goals are nothing short of opening a dialogue between peers m order to understand the distortions between us Hie larg er implii ations of rat e differ ent es, and media represent.i lions of them, need to he addressed nnd not swept under the run. Mv goals it" lode tin hotli our st.itt unit for tlie student txuh we serve to look deep into our hearts and examine the rat.iill divisions that threaten us all, .mil to provide an environment in whu h the person who made that fiver would feel i oiufortahle (aiming forw ard with the at t u sations he or she has leveled Ml "objw.t." like that of the "we" in horde's essnv. is i hnnue And until i limige ot t urs. I won't be silent l.itt Siih min is o columnist for the Kmerald The Best Just got Better, and it was worth the wait. Adobe Illustrator 5.0 I ILLUSTRATOR J Packed with powerful new features that can help make your best ideas, reality. Now you can make custom page sizes, edit in preview mode and work with unlimited layers Because you asked, we've made it more intuitive by giving you floating palettes for paint styles, gradient fills, layers, tools, character and paragraph styles It's so good, we had to skip a version number £003=. $114 Slmltmt Faculty or Staff ! 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