JL THE STUDENT HEALTH CENTER NEWSLETTER The Artist Within I see your lines both simple and intricate, elegant and distorted. Sometimes your colors are deep and shallow, bright and dim Sometimes you shine, sometimes you're numb Your nuances blend in and blend out sharply con trasting each other and sometimes the colors are ob scure I teel your textures both polished and coarse, sometimes invincible but vulnerable, rhythmic yet inter mittent. There are no imitations or substitutes for you You. are your own sculptured piece of art —individual and umgue But something is amiss Your best friend/ your worst en emy beckons to you and you partake But in the taking you're losing you and gaming an obsession with your friend All those lines, all those colors, all those textures covered by a blob of clay Who are you now9 I know you re inside that blob of clay somewhere I know you're not formless I've seen those lines, colors and textures that make you up. I won der can you give up your "friend and become an artist again? In being the artist of ourselves, taking control of de structive habits or addictions of any kind (alcohol, drugs, food abuse, sex. exercise-addiction) reguires a deeper knowledge of all the little payoffs that keep us hanging on to those seemingly helpful yet destructive behaviors For example, an alcoholic might use alcohol as a way of avoiding responsibility. Poor time managers might thrive on the chaos they create in their lives and the lack of time may be a mechanism to avoid failure It's easier to blame than to take responsibility to change Certain ad dictions are also a way of asking for help. The payoffs are numerous, complex and often unknown or unacknowl edged In changing addictions or habits, a person may be struggling to let go of something s/he has grown comfort able with Change is filled with uncertainty and to move past the inertia of remaining stuck is risky There are no guarantees. There are reasons there for remaining stuck in behaviors that simultaneously help us cope and hold us back For those artists who have chosen to give up their pseudo friend, there are some tools to facilitate that change 1) Self talk Be aware of the tapes you are playing and re playing in your brain. Evaluate those words and ask are they realistic? Supportive9 Destructive9' Chip away those negative words and replace them with positive words because it's here you create your own internal en vironment that guides or belittles you 2) Keep a private journal or record of your actions, feel mgs and thoughts Review your writings for patterns in what you do and how you feel Choose what you'd like to change accordingly This helps to decode the payoffs you may get from remaining stuck 3) Practice relaxation or meditation techniques to relieve stress and pressure Improve your self concept, increase openness to new behaviors and enhance your awareness of your strengths and past victories Paint in the varied colors that new awareness brings Allow yourself to de velop m new directions and let go of your past down falls these are gone and this moment, now, is new 4) Open yourself to awareness Expand your experiences Choose to obtain an interest in the large and small things of life For example, take a few minutes to marvel at a sunset without thinking of anything else—ergoy the es sence of the moment Part of being an artist includes being open to new ex periences even vulnerable to new experiences New ex periences entail a willingness to feel both good and nega tive feelings and knowing it is okay to feel successful it's okay to feel lonely —it s okay to feel1 Society doesn't allow people to have negative feelings, yet negative feel mgs are as much a part of life as the good feelings The more we shove them away and ignore them, the longer they have to fester Stating how we feel gives both our selves and the people around us a clearer picture of our identities —taking off the blobs of clay we hide behind By permitting that blob of clay to remain we think it helps us to handle life better (e g. the alcohol user who drinks to socialize) but in reality, the means we choose to got there'' may actually stop us from getting there To a greater degree you can create your reality through the filter of your perceptions and values. You are the art ist within Melanie Sited THE HIP L-^ |-1 1INSIDE 1 ADDICT IN THE HOUSE HELPING A FRIEND OPINION AND MUCH MUCH MORE... Start off the new decade on a healthy loot! Stop by the Health Ed ucation Library and check out our new books on a variety ot health related issues Books are available to check out tor all regis tered students tor 2 weeks Topics cover tit ness to eating disorders to substance issues and much, much more1 j Sticking to those new year resolutions is easier said than done! II you d like to see a health counselor regard mg a low fat diet get ting in shape, losing weight, quitting smok mg or managing stress, stop by the Health Edu cation Center and make an appointment or call 686 4456 Love your Heart in the 1990s! I The Student Health Cen [I ter can assist you in I] checking your blood H pressure and total cho n lesterol tor tree Stop by the Health Education Center on Tuesday mornings trom 9 30 to 11 a m Space is limited to the first 25 each week Need help with a term project or paper or speech? The Health Education Li brary has free pare phlets. handouts and current articles on a van ety of health topics A peer health adviser can help you fill in the gaps of your health knowl edge and direct you towards more resources on campus and in Lane County