Photo by Ross Martin No Tickertape Parades The Vietnam War was in many ways a different kind of war for America. BY CURTIS CONDON It has been 17 years since Lily Hill Stubbs last saw her son, Bill. In 1969, she was told only that he was missing in action. Four years later she was given a map of Southeast Asia showing where Bill, a staff sergeant with a unit of the Green Berets, was last seen and she was told the story of how his patrol was ambushed on Oct. 19, 1969, in Laos. The men had stopped on the trail Bill Stubbs was the point man. an ex posed position 15 yards ahead of the rest of the patrol He cautiously stood up to survey the terrain when, sudden ly, automatic weapons opened up not more than seven or eight feet away from him He fell to the ground severe ly wounded During the ensuing firelight the small group, made up of two Americans and a handful of South Vietnamese Kit Carson scouts', suffered more casualties and the decision to withdraw was made An evacuation helicopter was called and everyone was ex traded, except Bill Stubbs During the skirmish he was seen being dragged in to the bush by the enemy He was never seen again "At that time there was a $50 reward Curtis Condon is the editor of Spectrum magazine His previous experience includes two years as the editor of a small'city magazine and as a freelance writer for various Northwest magazines and newspapers to those guys for any Green Beret they brought back,” Lily Hill Stubbs says “He didn’t have his beret on because he was wearing a helmet at the time, but they knew She sat back in her favorite chair, a slight woman who has endured much She seems frustrated with her weaken ing legs and the need for a cane, after serving such an active life as a nurse At her feet was a stack of photo albums filled with pictures and momen tos of her lost son One album is filled with pictures of the White House recep tion given during the dedication ceremonies of the Vietnam Veterans Memorial in Washington, D C The in vitation from the White House occupies its own separate page There are pic tures of ‘the Wall', and snapshots of President Reagan addressing the gathering on the White House lawn Another album has clippings pertain ing to the war, photographs of her son overseas and a polaroid of him posing with his father, who is a retired Army major — both men are in their uniforms “He was out on a hush hush deal,” she confides. “That's why they couldn't tell us anything at the time "A young man, very confused, came to the door," she remembers “I think it was the first time he ever had to meet a family and tell them, ‘your son is miss ing.' He wasn't in proper uniform I mean, he didn't have his hat on and he was shaky We almost felt more sorry for him then we did for ourselves." After so much and so many years, Lily Hill Stubbs is no less "proud of my Bill" and the other veterans who fought in Vietnam There is nothing new about men be ing killed or wounded in war Officers appearing on the doorstep of the family of a serviceman killed or missing in ac tion is a scene that has been repeated many thousands of times in America And there's certainly nothing new about Americans having pride in the men and women who go off to war However, few people would deny there was something different, something tragically wrong with the Vietnam War What made it wrong' is the subject of an intense debate which goes on even today The question of how it was different from previous American wars is more easily answered, but no less complex "A big difference was on the home front,’’ says Gerry Kamp, a Vietnam veteran "Participation in the war effort was greater in World War II because of j the cause ana Decause ot ine magnitude of the war, and that didn’t happen during Vietnam There wasn't the social involvement that brought Americans together in World War II Kamp enlisted in the Navy in 1968 “to avoid the draft so I wouldn't have to go to Vietnam," he remembers with a laugh He was at the teletype when his orders to go to Vietnam came over the wire, and he was assigned to a river assault group in the Mekong Delta in South Vietnam "It was a time during the war when we rarely fired back We had aircraft coverage the Seawolves and Black Ponies — but for the most part they were calling a lot of zones passified zones’ and we had to have permission to fire back Sometimes by the time we got permission to fire back it was all over anyway," Kamp recalls He now spends most of his time run ning the Book Station, a combination gas station and bookstore he owns in Eugene Kamp also teaches courses on America’s involvement in Southeast Asia at the University, and he is cur rently teaching a course in the literature of Vietnam "Another difference is there wasn't a well defined time period of when the war started and when it ended," he continues "In Vietnam we kind of slid in and the fighting slowly escalated America got involved in Vietnam and Southeast Asia shortly after World War II, but the presence of a significant number of American troops didn’t exist until 1965 when a brigade of US. Marines landed near DaNang in South Vietnam By the end of that year there were 181,000 American troops in the country The number of Americans in Viet nam progressed from 23,(MX) advisers in January, 1965 to a peak troop strength of over 549.5(H) in 1969 A gradual withdrawal of troops began the same year A third difference between Vietnam and other American wars, Kamp points out. Is that there were no well defined, major battles "What you had was everyone involved in circular