Wednesday, January 21, 2015 The Nugget Newspaper, Sisters, Oregon Radio show Cancer — a powerful messenger explores nature of beliefs By Katy Yoder Columnist Do our beliefs help our evolution or hold us back? “Defining belief loosely as ‘an acceptance that a statement is true or that something exists’ doesn’t necessarily mean the thing or idea or concept or entity we declare we believe in is true. However, it’s certainly true for the one making the state- ment. In this context belief cannot be defined, other than as a state of mind,” says radio host Kelsey Collins. She’ll take on the nature and impact of beliefs in her Saturday radio show on community radio KZSO 94.9. “Stating we have faith or trust that our beliefs are accurate portrayals of real- ity has played a signifi- cant part of all religions for thousands of years,” Collins says. “But beliefs travel way beyond religions. They can be magical, too, as well as a phenomenon of human consciousness.” Collins will be joined by Pat Benage, a life coach in Bend, this Saturday on the Kelsey Collins Show, to discuss the subject of beliefs. The Kelsey Collins Show broadcasts at 9 a.m. at KZSO, 94.9. You can also hear the podcast later Saturday at kelseycollins.podbean. com. Cancer is telling us some- thing. Each person’s mes- sage is different. For some, their bodies hold a genetic predisposition to getting can- cer. For others it is environ- mental. The question is what do we have power over and what is out of our control? I was genetically tested and know that my breast cancer was not due to genet- ics. That being said, cancer has been the cause of death for quite a few of my family members. My father, grand- parents, cousin and uncle all died because of cancer. I reassured myself by the fact that my father and grandpar- ents were all stricken later in life. But my cousin and uncle were in their 30s and 40s. No matter how I looked at it, cancer was a shadow remind- ing me that I could be next. When I felt a lump in my breast I reassured myself that there was no history of breast cancer in my family. I put off having a mammogram or even going to see a doctor because of finances. I put it off until my intuition went from a whisper to an internal scream. By the time I saw a doctor and got the diagnosis, the tumor had grown beyond what would be considered early stages of development. What caused my breast cancer? I looked hard at my physical state. I have chosen to eat organic whenever pos- sible. But I am overweight. My battle with weight goes back to a tug of war that begins with the irony of my two grandfathers’ profes- sions. My father’s father was a dentist; my mother’s father was a candy maker. My maternal grandfather, Poppy, took us to the candy factory on special occasions, allowing us to fill a large plastic bag with any kind of candy we wanted. It was a sweet tooth’s dream come true. Fast-forward 40 years later and my sweet tooth has become quite picky. I go for the high-end, dark chocolate and organic versions of sugar highs. Either way, I know it’s a case of too many calories and not enough exercise to work it off. In my younger years, I was a fast-moving, hard- working kid with an entre- preneurial spirit that kept me strong and fit. As I aged and began working in an office, sitting in a chair for hours a day, I started using sweet coffee drinks and afternoon snacks to keep me going when my body just wanted rest. I didn’t realize that there was a day when my habit became an addiction. The switch was pulled and changing was a lot harder than before. I’ve dealt with using food as a means of self-medicating and celebrat- ing instead of a way to refuel my body. My doctor filled me in on a fact that had eluded me until I was diagnosed with breast cancer: My kind of cancer, which is estrogen fed, can have a direct corre- lation to being overweight. Excess fat in the body pro- duces estrogen. So being overweight contributed to my cancer. This was my wake- up call. Cancer was the messenger. The aftermath of Salted Caramel Mocha Mmmmm... treatment has made it harder to do what I can to change my circumstances. When I healed enough, I was getting out and walking five to six times per week. I started to have some pain but figured that was just part of getting back into shape. Eventually I realized that I had devel- oped tendonitis that made my Achilles tendons extremely painful. I’ve learned that after chemotherapy and the start of taking post-cancer drugs to halt the production of estrogen, many patients who try to get back into shape experience the same prob- lems. Both my arms have the potential for lymphodema so I have to wear uncomfortable tight-fitting sleeves from my wrists to my armpits when- ever I exercise. This summer those sleeves, coupled with the hot flashes I now expe- rience, made me feel like a pressure cooker. What I can still control is what I put in my mouth. Some days I do better than others. There are so many emotional repercussions from the cancer experience. I’m taking one meal at a time as I work on controlling how I deal with them. And there are other com- plications. Let me tell you, chemo-brain is real and it makes recovery harder. I for- get to take my pills, when I have a doctor’s appointment, 13 and the names of people I’ve known for years. I’m the first one to admit I’m not the sharpest scalpel on the tray, but I did okay at maximizing my positive attributes and mitigating the challenging ones. Chemo- brain tipped the scales and made me lose confidence in myself. That foggy brain feeling makes it harder to remember to do what I can to get healthy. But behind all of this belly-aching is a fact I want to remember more than any other. I AM STILL HERE! I lived and have been given the chance to change what I can change and choose a dif- ferent way to deal with the things I can’t. I am so grate- ful that I’m alive. I know there are so many who didn’t get the chance I have been given. When I sink into moments of sadness and loss of hope, I pick myself up by remember- ing those who lost their lives because of this disease. Through physical therapy twice a week my tendons are healing. I’m starting to get back out there and walk again. I’ve taken a few steps backwards but I’m at it again. I’m hoping that switching to a different drug that isn’t quite so severe will limit fur- ther injuries when I exercise. So, it’s time to put one foot in front of the other and see where it all leads. 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